Monday, March 23, 2009
Time Flies
The only thing I really have to report is that my spring marathon is now only 5 weeks away. The good news is that my 21.28, and just ask someone else who has run more than 20 miles just how much that 0.28 matters, went great. Yes I had to take a couple of walk breaks, but I'll probably do that in the race itself, but I felt pretty good in the last couple of miles - no drop off in pace - and with 5 weeks left I can still make some much needed gains in fitness. The not so good news is that my schedule is all jacked up from here on to race day with games, etc - I'm keeping my fingers that dry weather prevails over the coming weeks so the schedule will stay what it is and not be completely rearranged - so my training schedule will need to be in pencil, not ink.
Oh, and Saturday is a big day. Adding the color to the latest addition.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Who Watches...
T and I did something unusual for us last night. We went to the movies. On a week night. After the matinee prices expired. Oh, and we paid full price to see the movie in IMAX. I'm glad we did. We saw, what I consider one of the best films I've seen in a long time and that has nothing to do with its subject matter or source material.
What did we see? Watchmen.
Now, go back and read the disclaimer again just for shits and giggles before you proceed.
I've never read the comic series/graphic novel (but I will shortly!) so my opinion isn't based on how well the story mirrored the comic, but I've been looking forward to this movie ever since we saw the trailer with The Dark Knight, and I wasn't disappointed. It is about much, much more than superheroes...in fact I think it's a stinging commentary on humanity in general. The characters are a real as they can be - yeah, they dress up in costumes to fight villains but when was the last time you saw a superhero unable to get it up unless they were in costume? - and have problems and inner demons and agendas to deal with. Yes, there are some very gory, graphic scenes that at times can be disturbing but it also peels back the veneer of the characters to show us those psychological scars that result from their time in costume and what the world has done to them.
It's a dark movie, but at the same time it draws you in and doesn't let you go. It keeps you riveted to your seat wondering what will happen next and at no point do you feel like "come on pick up the pace, get to the end".
The only bad thing about this movie? The chances of it seeing the award recognition that it deserves (I truly think it would deserve consideration for things like best picture, best director, best adapted screen play) is nil.
Bottom line if you're hesitating seeing this movie because you've had your fill of campy-men-in-costume-superhero-films put that notion out of your head. This movie is not that. It's more of traditional film noir, than it is a superhero movie.
Put it this way - over dinner last night after the movie, I looked at T and our friend who went with us and said "I'd pay to see that on the big screen again," and seriously is there a bigger endorsement than that?
Monday, March 09, 2009
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Clarification
I have been a gypsy, for the most part, my entire adult life. Even if you factor in the four years in Oxford, Ohio, for undergrad the most time I've ever spent in one location is four years. That's right, since the age of 18 (that's 18 years if you do the math) I've lived in Ohio (4 years), Alabama (2 years), Tennessee (5 years - but 2 years in Pulaski and 3 years in Murfreesboro), Oregon (4 years), and now Michigan (3/4 of the way through year 3) and I've held 5 jobs not counting undergrad and grad school. I truly am a product of where I grew up. T gives me shit on a regular basis about the blue-collar-work-ethic that prevents me from calling in sick and taking mental health days from work, and she's right. It's a product of where I grew up and the example of going to work every day to provide for your family that I saw that instilled that in me. Mea culpa.
But, of all those places I've lived the only place I've felt like I've belonged has been Oregon. Way back in July of 2001 T and I took our only vacation to date. That summer we went to see her mother in Seattle, rented a car and travelled to Eugene. The week we spent there was amazing. I can still, to this day, remember at one point her mother looking at me - she probably noticed the goofy grin on my face - and saying "Kevin, you're a Pacific Northwesterner at heart...you just weren't born here." Two years later we moved there and my life really hasn't been the same since. Last summer when we were in Seattle for a quick visit it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders the minute we stepped off the airplane.
Friends came easier there...the things T and I enjoy doing in our free time flourish there...there are remote mountains, urban city life, an ocean and everything between in the borders of that state. There's really, really good beer. Professionally I hit my stride.
Those of you reading this in Michigan (or anywhere else for that matter) please don't think I'm disparaging your beloved mitten. I'm not. It too is a beautiful place with its own unique appeal. To you it is home, but for me it's just another place I've lived. A place that at some point I'll leave, hopefully to head back home.
Yep, you heard me. We've (okay I'm the one who suggested putting a timeline on it) got a 9 year plan. That amount of time will put me at 45 years old and I'm going on the record here and now: by age 45 our goal is to be living back in the pacific northwest, and ideally Oregon.
A guy has to have dreams, right?
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Maybe...
- Had a friend, V over for dinner last night. Good company, good conversation, great food. She brought her chocolate lab with her. Everyone, including the pooch had a fabulous time.
- T and I have decided to take a vacation. An actual vacation where we go somewhere and do something fun. No continuing education meeting. No races to run. Idea for this was planted Friday night at dinner with a bigger group of friends.
- Looks like we'll have company on said vacation. V, at least, is joining us.
- I had a great run today. More on that later.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
For The Record
Why?
Well, I'm not a fan of 12 hour days. Wednesdays in January and February mean 8:30 a.m. - noon baseball practice, followed by the middle distance runners workout (usually around 2 p.m.), followed by track practice at 3:15 p.m. The really fun part is Wednesday happens to be basketball game day as well.
Now I only have to be here for the home games, but it seems like every Wednesday we've played at home. I cover the women's games that start at 6 p.m. if there is a double header or 7:30 p.m. if it's just them. Usually takes about 1:45-2 hours to play the game.
Makes for long days. But, at least basketball season is almost finished. Just need to make it to spring break in 3 weeks.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Could It Be That Simple?
Monday, February 02, 2009
Change of Schedule
Not As Bad As I Thought
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Obstacles and Excuses
- crappy days at work, be it you or your spouse or your friends that require company to commiserate with and beers
- said beers leading to horrible nights of sleep - or if you want to be technical you might be able to call it passing out
- having to work all day after the aforementioned crappy night of sleep, and being hungover
- deciding to consume approximately three days worth of crappy food in one day
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Inspiration
What does that have to do with inspiration you ask? Here's what...
People resolve to change their habits or lives and they choose January 1, as the day to start. Be it dire warnings from a health care provider or and example set by someone close to them that they want to emulate, that is inspiration and it comes in many, many forms.
Now, I'd like to state for the record that I'm not a fan of the whole resolution thing, but I do start each year with goals: run 1500 miles this year, get my weight down before the marathon in April, exercise better fiscal responsibility, etc, but I don't view those as resolutions.
However, I am taking some inspiration from some people. The last few months of 2008 I felt like I had no control over my schedule. I felt a day late and a dollar short all the time. I struggled to get my runs in, and in general felt over-freakin'-whelmed a lot of the time. So to take a quote from T, I'm taking action steps dammit!
I'm not making excuses anymore about not being able to get my runs in, 'cause we have a treadmill in the basement and if some friends of mine can do it, so can I. What is it (yeah, sometimes I ramble, but then I'm composing this at work and I keep getting interrupted) you ask?
I'm taking some of my inspiration from this friend. See the first line of the fourth paragraph about getting up at 4:30 a.m.? I'm not getting up that early, but a goal this year is to get all of my runs done before I go to work, even if I have to get up at 5:30, like today, in order to accomplish it. If she can do it, I can to...
So the whole point of this is that inspiration comes in all shapes and sizes. It could be the friend who gives up a successful career as an athletic trainer to go back to school because they feel that's where they can make the most difference. It could be the family member battling against that fucking disease cancer and trying to make the most of the life they have left. It could be the school teacher trying to reach the kids in their classroom. Hell, as far as I know I might even be the inspiration for someone.
The key thing though? It's not recognizing that inspiration is there, it's acting on it. So I am. Up early. Trying to learn new things that will allow me to make a bigger impact at work. Trying to just be a better version of me.
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Memo
Friday, January 02, 2009
2008 Recap

Sunday, December 28, 2008
A Little Background...
This article pretty much sums up what I went through in December of 1990***.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
A 26.2 Mile Journey Begins With a Single Step
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
But It's A Good Hurt
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Yet Another One Has Past...
What a year #36 was...
I learned a lot about what truly makes up friendship.
I made some new friends, and there were some friendships that didn't make it.
I realized that none of us is getting any younger, and that scares me a bit.
I realized I need to work on making relationships better - including the relationships (or lack of one) with my siblings.
We bought our first house.
I ran two marathons.
I'm in a much better place starting this revolution around the sun than I was when I started the last one 366 days ago.
I've got good things on the horizon and I'm really looking forward to what year #37 holds for me, and the people I care about.
Speaking of people I care about - be you friend or family: Thank you for helping me be the best person I can. Without your presence and help, this journey wouldn't be possible, or nearly as much fun.
Monday, December 08, 2008
Breaking Tradition
- Wrapping paper or gift bags? Wrapping paper all the way.
- Real tree or Artificial? I'm a purist. Real trees and only real trees in this house.
- When do you put up the tree? No earlier than December 11.
- When do you take the tree down? Sometime before January 1.
- Do you like eggnog? Not really - but like Maria, I think the taste improves tremendously when you add a bit of whiskey.
- Favorite gift received as a child? The ones that stand out are group gifts to all of us, like the Atari 2600.
- Hardest person to buy for? Easy...Mom and Dad.
- Easiest person to buy for? Tonya.
- Do you have a nativity scene? Yes. It doesn't get displayed often, but we have one.
- Mail or email Christmas cards? Snail Mail.
- Worst Christmas gift you ever received? A leather wallet.
- Favorite Christmas Movie? National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation.
- When do you start shopping for Christmas? Around November 1.
- Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Nope.
- Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Buckeyes.
- Lights on the tree? Of course!
- Favorite Christmas song? Blues Traveler's Christmas...It is on A Very Special Christmas, Vol. 3
- Travel at Christmas or stay home? Stay at home this year, but usually travel.
- Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer? Not sure if I could or not...haven't tried.
- Angel on the tree top or a star? Growing up, Angel...now? Not sure.
- Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Again, purist/traditionalist here, Christmas morning.
- Most annoying thing about this time of the year? The blatant commercialization and the people who won't even acknowledge that Christmas is celebrated when it is might have something to do with a pagan holiday.
- Favorite ornament theme or color? Actually a light - Mom has some antique bubble lights she puts on their tree that are my favorite
- Favorite for Christmas dinner? If it's Christmas with my family - anything Mom makes. If it's with Tonya's family - her mom's fudge.
- What do you want for Christmas this year? To have friends and family around us to celebrate with.
Success!
Friday, December 05, 2008
It Only Took 865 Days
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Safe Haven
I chose to go to a place I always feel at home in, and killing an hour isn't the problem - the problem is being able to pull myself out of there in just an hour. Where is this magical place?
A bookstore.
Just roaming the aisles, pulling the occassional book off the shelf and reading a few pages before moving on to the next item that caught my attention. Not feeling any pressure to buy - not that I'm allowed to buy anything for myself, house rule: no buying anything for yourself before you birthday - but just browsing, losing myself in the myriad options and escapes that are before me.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Okay....
Sunday, November 30, 2008
And We're Finished With That
Worth A Thousand Words?
Saturday, November 29, 2008
7 Weeks Will Do That To You...
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Winter Wonderland
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Long Day
I finally completed all of my scheduled runs for the week, after many, many, many weeks of trying. I only ran 20 miles this week, but every one of those 20 miles felt good.
I ran today with T...and no matter what the pace may be when we run together, I love running with her. It gives us the chance to talk...or not talk and just be...together.
My mood has improved (even T commented on that today while we were running) and I'm finally starting to feel like myself again after Chicago. It's only taken a month.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Another good one
Friday, November 14, 2008
Rant
When I ask a goddamn "Yes"/"No" question do not answer: not really, sometimes, maybe, sort of, kind of, etc. I want you to say "Yes" or "No". I will then ask more questions.
Trend?
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Finally!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Next
I don't want to reveal too much, but this one will be a more traditional style pin-up. Hopefully I can have it done over Christmas when my work schedule isn't as hectic.
Oh, and the next time I decide to drink that much on a Tuesday night would someone please slap me.
Whoaaaa....
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Don't Want To Jinx it...
Monday, November 10, 2008
Workout? Check
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Accountability
Maybe?
I haven't been running.
Viscious cycle: no motivation so I don't run, I don't run so it kills my mood/energy level, I'm in a crappy mood so I don't have any motivation to run.
Plus, by not running I'm missing my favorite time of the year...the cool-almost-cold, grey sky fall days.
Must do better this week. MUST.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Unbelievable
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Three Words For You
Monday, November 03, 2008
Clean Slate
Friday, October 31, 2008
Under the weather...
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Not The Best Start
Monday, October 27, 2008
Forward
Monday, October 20, 2008
Closure
Monday, October 13, 2008
A warm one...
The weekend started out great thanks to Oache’s hospitality – nice dinner once we got to the Chicago area and great beer, always great beer.
Headed into downtown on Saturday to hit the expo and meet up with everyone else. We managed to see our friend Jessica who was running her first marathon with Team In Training at the expo, snap a few quick pictures and then headed in to get my packet/goodie bag. Holy big crowds in the Nike portion.
Biggest challenge at the expo was figuring out how to get to the restaurant where we were meeting the rest of the 30s gang for dinner. Managed to make it almost on time…fabulous food and great company. We personally got to see Voodoo try and regain his Clydesdale status with one meal. Said our good-byes and headed back to the train station to make our way back to the ‘burbs, only we had to wait for an hour for the next train. Finally made it back to Casa Oache with enough time to get my stuff together and get some sleep.
The train ride in to the city was uneventful and provided quite the opportunity for people watching. We walked over to the hotel where the rest of the crew were staying and then headed over to the start area…Holy mass of humanity.
It was interesting to see people next to us in the open corral with bib’s that indicated they were supposed to be way up ahead with the rest of the speedy folks. It was also interesting to see the jackass sitting down in the middle of thousands of people – I know he was trying to stay off his feet, but how he didn’t get trampled as people tried to move forward is beyond me.
Last words of encouragement were exchanged between Maria, her brother and sister, and I and then we were off…
I missed the first mile marker but I felt pretty good. Made sure not to go out too fast. I followed the advice of Baggs and took a bottle of Gatorade with me and I’m really glad I did. The first two water stops were a madhouse of people, plus the race was still congested from the start but I was able to somewhat navigate my way through – one guy cut in front of me so hard I actually stepped on the back of his leg and almost went down…about five strides later another person did the same thing but I was able to miss them. I blurted out pretty loudly “SERIOUSLY?!?!” and a woman moving past me on the right looked around. I said “not you” to her and her reply? “I know, I saw the other guy as well!” The one thing both of those asshats had in common? Wearin’ their iPods.
I was still making good progress through about mile 9-10. I was starting to feel the heat though, and made the mistake of not drinking enough water at mile 10 when I took my second three shot blocks – all the Gatorade and the blocks, and the heat made my stomach less than 100%.
I saw T, Brandy, and Maria’s family at mile 12-ish, stopped for a few minutes and then pushed on. I crossed the halfway point in 2:18:56, well off the pace I’d hoped. It was about this point that the sun really started bearing down on us. I was doing the best I could but could tell that I’d need to slow down a bit more to make sure the wheels didn’t completely fall off.
Around mile 16 I noticed that the “Moderate” warning level had been changed to “High”. I walked a good portion of mile 17 then tried to push on from mile 18-20. From there I pretty much alternated running a mile and walking a mile and I was trying to figure out in my head which miles to run/walk so that I’d run the last one in to the finish.
As I approached mile 26 I got ready to push to the end. See I wasn’t going to walk any of mile 26 for one reason: the name on my bib. As a tribute to duckgeek’s nephew who tragically lost his life last week I inscribed “Mitch #10” on my bib, and since the race didn’t put the runner’s name on it I only had “Mitch #10” on there…every time someone from the crowd or aid station would look at me and say “doing great Mitch!”, “going strong Mitch”, or “Almost there Mitch” it would push me on a bit more so there was no way I wasn’t going to finish simply because I wasn’t just running for me, but I was running for Mitch as well.
About a half mile from the finish I saw T and Brandy again and they gave me the update on Baggs and Maria and then I pushed on to the finish.
It wasn’t the day I’d hoped for, but the fact that I was able to persevere and finish is a big accomplishment.
Thanks to everyone for the texts/emails/phone calls checking in…it meant a lot.
I'm planning on taking the next day or three and breaking down yesterday and my training leading up to it so expect to be bored with all of that.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
2...
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
4...
Monday, October 06, 2008
5...
Sunday, October 05, 2008
6...
Friday, October 03, 2008
8...
Between real life getting in the way and a dark cloud of lethargy settling in over me it's really put a crimp in my running plans.
Look over to the right there...see that running log? Anything stand out? That's right! Even if I had gotten around to log the run I did on Wednesday then it would list one run this week. That's a taper alright.
The only positive thing right now is the shirt that I ordered arrived yesterday, so I'll be able to give it a test run on Sunday when I get my last double digit run in before the big day.
This weekend has to be better.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
11...
Monday, September 29, 2008
12...
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Recap
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
A Trend Maybe?
8/13
7:38, 7:38, 7:46, 7:48, 7:44
8/26
7:43, 7:33, 7:40, 7:46, 7:55
9/10
7:33, 7:48, 7:42, 7:46, 7:56
9/23
7:48, 7:48, 7:44, 7:50, 7:41
Much more consistent effort/paces today. Maybe this training thing is paying off?
Oh, and to all of you out there (although probably not reading this) that added to my level of frustration yesterday? Thanks. 'Cause I think it fueled today's run, but next time I'd appreciate it if you'd stay the hell away from me. Okay?
Monday, September 22, 2008
Simple Things
Sunday, September 21, 2008
101,376
Friday, September 19, 2008
You Decide
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Almost Afraid To Say It...
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Really?
Monday, September 15, 2008
Quickly Approaching
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Luck
Kick ass Frayed Laces.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
About Freakin' Time!!!
Monday, September 08, 2008
Four Weeks, Five Days
Friday, September 05, 2008
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Fine, I'll Show You
So I'm standing at the field waiting for the soccer game to start and I call T to fill her in on my day...while we're talking I decide that for dinner I wanted to go and eat completely unhealthy bar food and drink beer. Then I made the following comment to her:
"You know what, if my motivation and body are going to betray me, I'll just look 'em in the eye tonight and say "Fuck You"...wings and beer it is and I'll get up and run tomorrow."
And I did...nothing like eating 10-15 boneless chicken wings (various sauces) and drinking two large draft Oberon's and getting up and running. I might not have run far or that long (3.5 miles in 37:29) but I ran.
If, no when I run tomorrow that will be two days in a row. Add that to a run on Saturday and I've got a streak going.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Recapping a Wonderful Week
Friday, August 29, 2008
Frustrations...
Monday, August 25, 2008
Restart
August hasn't been the best month for my Chicago training, although I have managed to still run 113 miles with this week to go, with being sick and crazy work hours. I did, however, complete my 20 mile long run yesterday!
So, I'm taking the chance to reset, ctl-alt-del if you will, and get back on to solid ground with my running, 'cause I've only got 7 weeks until race day.
Also using today to start over on the 100 Push Up Challenge (the link is over on the right). We made it to week three before things sort of went sideways so we redid the initial exhaustion test on Saturday and started Week 1, Day 1 today. Initial exhaustion test I did 30. I'll keep you informed how I do at the end.
Hopefully now that things are back to normal I'll finally be able to get some of the things posted on here that have been bouncing around my head for the last two weeks.
Have a great Monday folks.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Thanks...
Guess I've grown weary of the US media hype machine and what it is doing to Phelps - not trying to diminish or detract from his accomplishment at all.
Plus, from my own personal experience, and that includes being around some of the best swimmers in the country and others while I was at Auburn, for the majority of swimmers you taking 'em out of the water equals total disaster. They do not do well on dry land.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Thoughts, Discussion, Controversy?
For discussion:
Here is a great article/opinion piece by Amby Burfoot about the Olympics and the topic du jour: Michael Phelps and his amazing medal feat.
Here's my opinion - Phelps is a great swimmer. Swimmer. Is he the greatest Olympic athlete? Not a chance in my book. Who might be? I'm sure everyone could offer forth suggestions, but see Mr. Burfoot's blog entry above about "the real games".
One person I suggest? Emil Zatopek. 1952 in Helsinki he did something that will probably never be repeated. He won the gold medal in the 5000, 10,000, and the marathon. In one Olympics. Google him and read about how that marathon in Helsinki was his first, and how he decided to run it at the last minute.
Feel free to discuss. I gotta get back to work.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
At Least I Know Why Now
So no wonder running as been so difficult lately...at least it's better than the alternative. After the rapid strep test came back negative did a blood draw to do a more thorough strep test and a test for mono. Had it come back as mono that pretty much would have ended any chance of running Chicago.
Just need to take care of myself the next few days and take my antibiotics.
Monday, August 04, 2008
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Saturday Recap
Streets of Fire 8kFriday, August 01, 2008
The Challenge
Two Forward One Back
Thursday, July 31, 2008
End of the Month
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Little Things Add Up
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
...and He's Back!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
*%!*
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Something To Ponder...
Steve Prefontaine
The Dark Knight
Ledger deserves the Oscar nomination if he gets it...and he deserves it for the performance not out of sentimentality over his death.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
So Far So Good
Now, off to see The Dark Knight at the local IMAX theater.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Do I Have What It Takes?
As I sat and looked back at how things were; what I did right, what I could do better, what did I need to completely overhaul, leading up to Grandma’s Marathon I kept asking myself do I really have the self discipline I need to train successfully for this 26.2 mile race on October 12.
My schedule is about to get busy again as fall sports return and classes start shortly after. I haven’t had the best results dragging my sorry ass out of bed this summer, and do I expect a giant switch to be flipped come August 13th that will magically make getting up at 6 a.m. (or earlier) to run and exercise easy in addition to putting in 10+ hour days?
So I began to debate self discipline in my head. Do I have it? Better yet what is it really? What can I do to increase it?
Maybe I am self disciplined and events of real life have gotten me off track and in a funk (no nothing horrible has happened like a death in the family or the loss of a friend – just normal things like spending most of the month of June traveling and spending most of a week in July in Cincinnati with family and friends) and I just need a bit of a kick in the pants to get myself back on track.
Then I started asking myself what that kick in the pants might be…and I came back to self discipline.
Chicken? Egg?
I’ve gotten some ideas, some new things to try. I’ll let you know how I do.
Right now, I need to go cook dinner.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
How Many Does It Take?
Answer: Three, but only two were really needed, and that doesn't include the trip about a month ago when the faucet itself was purchased. It also doesn't take into account the trip tomorrow to return the items purchased (and not needed) during trip three today.
At least three hours after starting the project it was done, and the new faucet does look good.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Back To Normalcy
Returned to the great state of Michigan yesterday.
Now just have to get a few things accomplished before it's time to punch the ol' time clock again in a few weeks.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Commemorating
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Once More With Feeling...
Kind of how I’ve been feeling since mid-April. Thanks to a hectic spring sports season, the end of the school year, training for my first marathon, traveling to see some friends (and run a half marathon with ‘em), traveling to see family, family health issues, friends struggling with life changing issues, dealing with my own issues I just wanted to call “time-out” for about 3-4 days and just hide from the world.
Then I ran Grandma’s Marathon. Things are different now. I came out of that weekend with a whole different perspective on everything that had been weighing me down. I realized as I ran the last 1.2 miles that day that I can deal with anything if I focus and push forward. Focus and determination, and support from the people that love and care about you (another thing I realized that day – I’ve got a lot of people that care about me, some where there physically for me that day, others there in spirit) will empower you and help you accomplish your goals.
Friends are still dealing with serious issues in their lives, as I’m sure I will again at some point, and I hope that I can be like T and the rest of the 30s gang* that were there for me on June 21: screaming my head off cheering them on as they battle to cross the finish line, and even if the friend can’t hear me they will know I’m right there with them.
*the next time someone rolls their eyes, gives me the “oh-my-god-friends-from-the-internet-is-creepy” look, or says they aren’t real when I mention these people I may come unglued. Just because they don’t live down the street from me doesn’t mean they aren’t real friends for fuck’s sake. Some of them are as much a part of my life as the friends who give me those looks.




